Yea, yea, yea, I know that I was supposed to be on some kind of find-yourself epic journey when I embarked on my adventure across Spain. And yea, I know that from the outside, my stress levels due to a crappy economy, a relationship bombing out and no clear directions of where I wanted to go in my career or where I wanted to live - led one of my friends to predict that I would be on an EatPrayLove adventure...
I just didn't want to believe it. And FFS, that is where I seem to have ended up. Not that I did any praying, let's just get that straight. But, I did sort of find the core pieces of my happiness and can now appreciate the quirkiness of a boy who refuses to impulse shop. I would have to call it love. If for nothing else than I find his idiosyncrasies amusing.
For one, he who grew up in austere DDR, has no problem with saving a euro, or a sit-down shower is the same man who plunked down thousands of euros in cash on a BMW sedan. When the deal was good. He dresses in sport clothing everyday. Black pants, black socks and black or grey or red tshirt and cop shoes. It's because he bikes to work, see? Everyday. Come winter or rain. Because it is through the park.
And, he wants to keep it that way. So, even if we both work on the east (or northeast) part of town, we will be living on the west side of town because we can then bike through the park to and fro work. And, well, it is the up-and-coming neighborhood on the west side. It has been for awhile. Likely, it won't get there anytime too soon as I doubt the hippy-posers and the punk-dyed post teens are still gripping onto their rebellion. In the gentrified neighborhoods, the yuppies are trolling their perfect little offspring in REI style'd bicycle trolleys and buying overly expensive organic vegs and fairtrade clothing. Likely it is the same clothing from the goths or Emos, but without the frilled lace and washed until the black has faded out to emu color. It's recycled, hello!
So I spend my days trying to justify activity when it doesn't involve A) survival; as I have a comfortable place to crash B) getting a good cup of coffee; as after Spain I cannot justify three times the cost for inferiority C) finding something yummy to eat; as that doesn't really exist except the bratwursts and one can only do that so often or D) shopping; when there isn't any space to collect things or anything justifiable to purchase that hadn't been purchased and purged in my former life. Except books. But, that's an addiction.
Okay, so sans shopping, sans cafes, sans wandering, all I can really do is question why I am here. Yes, Germany does have a good economy. The people are hard-working (ish) and they care to read to the bottom of my CV instead of insisting that I teach la infancia. This is good. But, they are so damn serious. Waiters don't smile. People aren't laughing on the streets. Botellons are only in the park for the homeless. The local fauna is boring (Dumpfplauderer), quivering in their corners (Hausmaus) or sloth-like (Faultier, Koala). I miss Spain and its color and its energy. But this is where he is and he is something special.
Therefore, I believe I am duty-bound to add some spirit here. Or at least open up a good tapas restaurant with a good wine selection, loud televisions, and real tapas. And it will be a hit. And, then I'll walk down the streets with a small paintbrush and swipe all of the earth-tone buggies with purple or dayglo or something. Oh, how my evil plan will shape up.
Any ideas, let me know. EPL is now Operation CAC - Camino Absorb Color.
Lizard Tales
Thursday, 13 September 2012
Monday, 23 April 2012
Bullfighting follow-up...
not only are the Spaniards greatly divided about the 'sport' of bullfighting, they respond to its existence with cultish voracity. I have since found out that the horse's armor is a modern addition and that before the 20's or so, several horses were killed in each event, that noone really knows if the origins are Roman or Greek and that fighting lions or each other like the Gladiators would be more sporting. And, there's a shitload of money involved. A regular matador fetches 10,000 euros. A magnificent one, 200,000.
So, of the two sides, one vehemently argues that bullfighting is a cultural tradition, that it is a dance and that this particular breed of bull is preserved if only for its participation in the bullfighting sport. Besides, it is eaten. The other side finds the outfits and the manner of sweeping a cape a bit ridiculous and the cruelty of continually stabbing your food before the kill to be unsupportable. I wish I could have filmed this debate in class. She, a conservative Andaluz often rolls her eyes and tuts in class and is the one who said that 'Franco did what had to be done' (starting the Civil War). He is a tall effeminate Spaniard with gloriously expressive hand gestures. She was leaning back rather relaxed in her seat, feet crossed, hand on her cheek. He was erectly leaning forward with fire spitting out of his eyes.
So I asked him, if you don't agree with it, how was the chicken killed that you ate last night? Well, if you want to say that I have to kill my food in this manner, than I would put on the stupid outfit and I would coax the the chickens with an abanico instead of a cape. Oh, the vision! I think I am going to paint that. And put it in the museum next to Velasquez's buffons.
Wednesday, 18 April 2012
Spanish NASCAR
whether you go to watch
a well-executed pass or the tail-in-the-air collisions, bullfighting is quite
spectacular. i knew that when I'd signed up to stay in Andalusia that I
could not deny going to a bullfight based upon the typical American reaction to
watching an animal tortured and bested for show. and I also could not
deny going to a traditional Spanish sport on any humane grounds once I found
out that the bull is actually eaten afterwards. i mean, for goodness
sake, I rely on slaughterhouses for my meat and have never been to one of
places to see the chickens or cows herded between grates and smacked in the
heads. I think that might be a bit more disturbing to watch.
so, here's the thing.
Anglos. If you want to watch a bullfight in Sevilla. A)
likely, you will find no other Anglos interested in going with you.
fortunately, I like to do shit alone. B) there are a ton of
websites aimed at the unsuspecting Anglo who will fork over 3-4 times the cost
just to find a ticket through a broker whose website is in English. those
seats looked fairly empty by the way. C) don't pay the extra 10 euros to
have the ticket mailed to your house. Instead, be confused by the cryptic
'you will be given a pager number' message at the bottom of the page. Is
this the 80's? no, better to enjoy the cloak-and-dagger adventure of
trying to find Angelo at the bar at 2 o'clock to collect your ticket in person.
really. fortunately, my guiri accent pegged me well and he knew
exactly who I was when I walked up. Next, D), get to the match early.
This way you can stick out just that slightly bit more as a foreigner and
as a sad sight as the only solo person there. No, there were definitely
other solo people. But they were old men that had been in those same
seats for years. Don't worry, if you make it through a few kills without
vom'ing or leaving, they will come talk to you and explain some things.
Like, this is a special
breed of bull. Not like those bulls in North America. No, these
guys have been bred for this. They're strong. They literally feel no
pain. ? And, like any decent military thought - if they aren't strong
enough - we don't use them?? Because it is a fucking sport.
Let me put it this way.
It can be disturbing. But really only when the matador completely
sucks at his job. Otherwise, you don't spend much time contemplating why
a bull was chosen for this act of gladi-ation. They're stupid. Here's a
skinny little man, a featherweight, dressed in a mickey mouse hat, pink socks
and sequins. He stands perfectly concave, puckering his anus, dangling
his pee-pee out and the bull is 'tricked' into rushing for the pink and yellow
cape that he is swooping. Really? You can't see who is holding the
freakin' spears and capes? Your damn sure they aren't using a decent
pitbull for this 'fights'. Trust me, that would last about a nano-second.
So, this is a big, black pile of food on four legs. Check.
Now the score. You
enter the arena. The audience is chock full of old men and strangely,
little girls with their grandparents. Disproportionately more girls
than boys. Not sure why. You hope not to get wedged between two
overly large men on the concrete bench, but are grateful when there are
alternate seats. You presumably rent a hemorrhoid cushion, if
you are a local, but for 2 hours, no pasa nada. Then, the band starts up.
The music was fantastic by the way. A bugler announces the
beginning of the show and a bull trots out into the arena. Five or six
rodeo clowns, dressed as matadors, jump out from behind the guard gates and
coax the bad boy over to the shady side of the arena. (It took me a long
time to figure out it wasn't the shade they wanted, but the side of the arena
without the cheap seats.) Okay, a dance begins. Over here bully.
Over here bully. Let's tire him out a bit. He's panting.
His fringed pee-pee (thinking this is the whole macho
we're-going-to-dangle-our- pee-pee,-too, thing comes from) is bobbing on a
string. Then, toot-toot-te-toot, the horses come out. Two, though
only one seems to get action at a time. Atop the slightly armoured horse
is another skinny Spaniard, but this time in less rhinestonery. Because
he has a big spear. They coax blacky into ramming the horse (truly the
horse is who I felt the worst for) whilst the rider tries to puncture the fatty
area behind the beast's neck. Remember, no pain. Then, when that is
satisfactory, the horses leave and the clowns come out with banded toothpick
looking things. Two at a time. Those get pricked into the same
necky region and eventually lose their color to red with the blood. I
think these must be used as indicators to assess how much blood is actually
lost. Surprisingly, not very much.
Okay, then, our dear old
matador comes out. He makes a big show. He coaxs a charge and
sweeps the beast majestically past his hip. OLE! If he is
lucky. And thus he needs to draw it out for a good little while.
Why? because we only have 6 bulls and have to fill 2 hours dammit.
So, tire, tire, tire him out some more and if you are slow the bugler
will remind you and you have to artfully jab a long spear behind the neck and
into the lungs. This likely hurts a little, but isn't instantaneous.
Bully can still rally and horn the matador a few more times. And,
that he did. Of the three, only one was a truly good matador. The
other two got good and flipped and one I thought was totally down for the
count. Anyway, so once the beast is truly lulling, the wait is for him to
just collapse. Yea! Man in Tights won! Our friend El Picadero
then prances over and thrusts the final ice-pick-like blow at the base of the
skull and it is done. The absolutely most retching part is his. He
doesn't just jab. He jiggles for a bit, too. That guys a
psycho-path. The others at least dance and sally and run away at times.
That one's the opportunist.
Done. Dead bull.
A team of zookeepers comes out. Chains around the horns, attach him
to a team of horses and pull him around the sand to the exit. Showy.
If the matador was good, white hankies are waved, some
feathery Shakespearean looking character comes out and cuts off the
ear for the matador and the matador takes a slow victory lap around the arena.
Flowers, if thrown, are gladly accepted. Hats and jackets?
Goodness knows why, were also thrown to him. But, they didn't match
his outfit, so he threw them back.
I've tried to give you
as complete of a description of this event as possible. I know that it is
unlikely that any of you will book a flight just to see a bullfight and I am
hoping to have saved you a few euros. Well, it only cost 12 euros, but
you know what I mean. I found it fascinating. Likely I will never
feel compelled to repeat the experience. But with a good matador, it
isn't as disturbing as you may imagine. It's just getting to that good
one that's the trick.
Hope you getting to
enjoy a lovely sunny Sunday afternoon. And remember, next time you eat
your beef, someone had to do it. I just hope he got to flip someone
first.
Thursday, 9 February 2012
Head Scratchers
In southern Spain you feel that you are in contact with the
real Spain, the traditional Spain, the living embodiment of all things Spanish
and yet when you live within the alternate universe – you find some strange and
often head scratching occurrences.
Sure, the rules are the same everywhere – when you meet an
over-eager local who wants to befriend you and tell you all that is good and
wonderful about the locality – it is either because they’ve been hired as the
local ambassador or it is because they are looney tunes and have no living or
local friends. Bingo.
I don’t need to hear that this is the best olive oil in the
world or that these are the best oranges in the world or that we hate Catalunya
just because they want to separate – even though we’ve never visited – and especially
that I have to pronounce my c’s and z’s with an Andaluz lisp. I really don’t want to sound like a retard
when I travel and I am certainly not going to adopt the Andaluz dread of the
letter S.
So what does this Stepford town show me? First, there’s a uniform. The women wear leggings with boots and shorts
or skirts and a very long (butt covering) plain top with a high neckline. No matter their hairstyle, faux pearl studs
are the norm. The men all wear jackets
and nice cardigans over a collared shirt and chinos. Upon a certain age – the cardigan must be an
olive drab.
Then, there’s the cold.
Constant complaints of cold weather, cold rooms, cold streets. So, you would suspect people bundle up like
Eskimos and light their fireplaces as soon as they get home. Well, no.
No one really has fireplaces. In
fact, there are no heaters save space heaters and the incredibly stupid
brasserie under the dining room table.
Stupid because the local population would rather plug in a heater under
the dining room table, shove their legs under the heavy tablecloth and sit
around the table all night than heat their bedrooms. So you have tiled rooms, drafty doors,
windows that leak like sieves and yet, only a shit heating solution that sweats
your legs and not the rest of your torso?
What gives? Are we in the coldest
winter in absolute history? No,
actually, it gets this cold every year.
Remarkably, the locals forget that winter shows up every year. Like every year and totally forget that
winter equals cold. I could understand
if it happened every 10 years, but every year?
Why, you ask, do they continue the cycle of freezing their asses off
only to complain? Because, they
apparently forget when the hot of summer hits.
That, they remember. Thus, the
houses are tiled. Urgh. I have extracted promises of a campaign to
save the American and future visitors from utter freezation by implementing a community
wide heating installation plan.
Above all, though, I
have definitely learned to respect their attitude towards wine and football
(soccer to you Americans). There is a
definite fan base going, but no one seems to be going to crazy about it. There are no rally cries in the pubs, no back-pounding
celebrations or vom’ing drunks after a rivalrous match – just plain entertained
fans. Why? I believe it is because, unlike American
football and our expensive wine, both are readily available and that has led to
complete moderation. And as a fan of
both, it makes me quite happy to be here!
Sunday, 18 December 2011
"High schoolers suspended for Tebowing"
you know you've made it when you a neologism is created by verbing you!
Saturday, 17 December 2011
Vigorexia
It would only seem natural after months of obsessing over Viggo Mortensen, his movies, his physique, that scene in Eastern Promises, that I would be diagnosed with vigorexia. But, it is not what you think!
Vigorexia is a condition that I have only here in Spain. You see, the other day when I was leading a discussion on common addictions, such as caffeine or internet porn, I found that the classroom full of mature adults had absolutely nothing that they wanted to admit to! This lackluster response was either due to an inherit inability to understand my American, a personal embarrassment or I had just happened upon a large group of seriously boring people. Lackluster. So, what? I could keep repeating the ills of cigarettes. Done. Or the addictive powers of the internet. Boring. The horrendous repercussions of gambling. Same old story. Or, I could admit to my own addiction... exercise.
If I don't go to the gym, hike a few miles, get outside and move around - I am a cranky bastard. Not only that, I feel despondent, don't want to eat and generally don't want to interact with anyone. If I feel a little soft in the middle or my legs aren't toned... If I cannot lift my backpack with complete ease... If I am embarrassed in my clothing... these issues trigger the likes of Mr Hyde and need to correct myself fast!
But, isn't that normal? It's not like I am addicted to adrenaline - I am not constantly jumping out of airplanes for goodness sake - it's just that my body is telling me that exercise is good for me and that I must maintain. Good heart, good health, right?
No. According to these Spaniards - I have vigorexia. In English - bixorexia. En serio? Now, I realize that when I go to the gym and run for an hour that I have more muscular legs than the guys. And I realize that when I walk around in shorts - I get stares from all of the old biddies on the park benches. And I realize that I cannot wear the Liverpudlian stripper heals because I would look like a drag queen. But mentally ill? I think not.
Well, at least I now know why I look so different from everyone here - more foreign than Amazonia - and why only bomberos seem to ever think to ask me on dates. I am a physical challenge - or someone in desperate need of rehab!
Vigorexia is a condition that I have only here in Spain. You see, the other day when I was leading a discussion on common addictions, such as caffeine or internet porn, I found that the classroom full of mature adults had absolutely nothing that they wanted to admit to! This lackluster response was either due to an inherit inability to understand my American, a personal embarrassment or I had just happened upon a large group of seriously boring people. Lackluster. So, what? I could keep repeating the ills of cigarettes. Done. Or the addictive powers of the internet. Boring. The horrendous repercussions of gambling. Same old story. Or, I could admit to my own addiction... exercise.
If I don't go to the gym, hike a few miles, get outside and move around - I am a cranky bastard. Not only that, I feel despondent, don't want to eat and generally don't want to interact with anyone. If I feel a little soft in the middle or my legs aren't toned... If I cannot lift my backpack with complete ease... If I am embarrassed in my clothing... these issues trigger the likes of Mr Hyde and need to correct myself fast!
But, isn't that normal? It's not like I am addicted to adrenaline - I am not constantly jumping out of airplanes for goodness sake - it's just that my body is telling me that exercise is good for me and that I must maintain. Good heart, good health, right?
No. According to these Spaniards - I have vigorexia. In English - bixorexia. En serio? Now, I realize that when I go to the gym and run for an hour that I have more muscular legs than the guys. And I realize that when I walk around in shorts - I get stares from all of the old biddies on the park benches. And I realize that I cannot wear the Liverpudlian stripper heals because I would look like a drag queen. But mentally ill? I think not.
Well, at least I now know why I look so different from everyone here - more foreign than Amazonia - and why only bomberos seem to ever think to ask me on dates. I am a physical challenge - or someone in desperate need of rehab!
Wednesday, 14 December 2011
Salud? En Realidad?
I need to refocus – to push myself a bit – to try new things
– to sharpen my observation. Push myself
to learn about our Health Care System before I can have an intelligent
conversation with my students – adults – here in Spain. So I asked.
There is a great program by Frontline that tells some pretty ugly
realities but without the sensationalism of Michael Moore. That is what I needed. I needed to know why, while working as a
professional – most of the problems people faced never effected me. I learned and now I know why some things are
broken. But, I can also keep to my
original theory that insurance companies that work for a profit – as any good
businessman does – are really the problem.
That, and their lawyers.
But what about in a system with quote un-quote universal
coverage, with standardized pricing and access to the latest technology? Where does it fail? Or, does it?
It seems that given the choice, most Spaniards opt for private health
care (at around 60 euros a month) because of convenience and quicker access to
appointments and non-emergency surgeries.
(Two weeks for a hernia as opposed to six.) When I asked my professional adults if they
would be willing to take that same 60 euros and hand it over to the government
to improve the State system – no one was.
This is the exact same parallel as America asking us to fork over more
taxes to pay for a system that may or may not improve by throwing more money at
it. They understood and agreed. Americans pay 16% of their GPD on Health
Care. So what gives? It is obviously highly inefficient. Or, the insurance companies have a nice
take. ( I just read El Cid and can draw
all sorts of parallels there, too).
And what happens when you receive free Health
Care in Spain? Why, after three
years of “coverage”, you decide to take advantage of the system and get those
annual checkups that you’d been missing.
You call up for an appointment on a Monday. The doctor can see you on Thursday. Not bad.
No long queues, nothing messy.
They clinic is beautiful and clean.
The staff professional. You get
to see the inside of your uterus live for the first time in your life and you
are free to go. Drop off the sample for
the lab on the way out the door.
Wow. They didn’t weigh you, they
didn’t take your height, or your blood pressure, or anything vital. But, you got to see that there aren’t any
cobwebs in your fallopian tubes, as you suspected, so you are happy. Downstairs, the receptionist asks for 80
euros. What? I thought this was free. Look, I have my insurance card. Here.
Newly minted. No, no. Step over here. We get charged for the lab and we use a
private lab. Fine. Can I take it to the public lab? Yes, it is well, over there. Oh, I have a map. Where is it?
Um, somewhere over here.
Right. So once you have the
results, mind you, you have to bring them back to this clinic. Fine.
Here’s my insurance card. Well, I don’t
really want it, but I will scan it anyway.
And, remember, you cannot come back here ever, for anything, as long as
you shall live. Or something to that
effect. WHAT? I got your name from the book for crying out
loud. This town is a freaking baby
factory and this is the only freaking gynecologist in town. WTF?
So, the next day, I venture to the dentist. Same insurance card but this time they accept it. All rosy smiles and welcoming. Watch the news on the flat screen next to your head and your teeth are given a cursory review for cavities. None. Good. Cleaned with raspberry paste and you are good to go. At this point you are elated to have received better treatment than at the gyno's, so you proceed to checkout and are on your way. Wait. I know you don't really speak Spanish or really know the system, but shouldn't there be an XRay or two? Nope. Fluoride? Nope. Recommendations of toothpaste or toothbrushes? Nope. Six month check-up? Por supuesto no. Do people even really clean their teeth in this country? Well, I do see more missing and rotting teeth here than I should when 'everyone is covered'...
But, what about emergency care? When you go out and about exploring the environs of this beautiful paisaje, you tend to run across a cold or two and if you are extremely lucky - it may either develop into or weaken you enough that a stomach flu comes along. It's not actually called that here. But I have finally come to find out that I do not indeed, have a Social Security Card. Nice as it is that the Junta de Andalusia gave me private insurance by Mapfre on top of the 'universal coverage' - it doesn't really mean shit when the receptionist has no idea how to fill out the resulting forms or whether she needs to turn me away. Fortunately, after waiting an hour for the doctor to return from siesta (in a clinic with presumably 20 doctors), he accepted my diagnosis, listened to my belly and gave a prescription. He asked if I had the magic prescription paper from my doctor - uh, no, I have an emergency situation - if I had a doctor - I would have gone to him. Sin magic paper - prescription is paid out of pocket until I find a doctor to provide it. Hmm. Wasn't the guy with the prescription a doctor? Well, in the end, maybe not. It seems I was just given a script for diarrhea. Vamos a ver.
In the end, I prefer to be sick in America. At least I have confidence that a temperature will be taken, blood pressure, weight - something that provides a baseline or an indication other than that I can pick up my head and speak in a halting second language. Fighting the insurance companies has never compromised my faith in our doctors. Here, that element's gone and I still ain't confident.
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